SOMETHING IN THE WAY SHE MOVES HOW TO

It’s not easy because this requires a change in our attitude and thinking. I can’t change my height, my facial structure, the size of my hands. I can always get better with my makeup so I can practice, take lessons, and watch videos. But it’s important to know what can be changed and what we need to accept. If I look in a mirror and see my lipstick looks smudgy and I hate how it looks, then it’s time to practice my lip liner and technique. So, what do we do? It depends on what it is. I love mirrors but sometimes they reflect something we hope we don’t see or expecting. We hope we move like angels because we feel like we are cloud 9.

We hope our eyeliner looks as amazing as it makes us feel, we hope a dress makes us look like a supermodel because that’s how it makes us feel. There really isn’t a point to this post except to say that I think we have a lot of expectations and hope as to how we look, move, sound, and feel as we present as a gender that is different than a gender we normally present as. The shock and cringe came from me realizing that how Hannah moved was sooooo different than how I felt when I moved. Of course this is not to say that there is a certain way girls should move or walk, mind you. The videos looked a little better but soon I got to the point where I didn’t watch them at all.Īs devastating (I know I am being dramatic here) as the videos were, I got over it and moved (see what I did there?) on. As the day and videos progressed I slowed my walk down a little, I stood a little taller, shoulders back, head higher. Whether we were shooting a video or just walking from one location to another I couldn’t help thinking about how I looked when I moved. I was super self-conscience the rest of the day. I always felt like I glided when I was in en femme. Needless to say this was a humbling and crushing experience. I know I sometimes look like a man in a dress, but my god, now I realized I walked like a man in a dress. I wondered if this is what people see when Hannah is out and about. Have you ever come home after a day out en femme and looked in the mirror and saw your lipstick was smudged or your foundation was smeared and you realized that all day long you walked around looking like that? This moment was like that. I didn’t look graceful, I didn’t move how I thought I moved, I looked like Frankenstein’s monster clomping around. I watched what she shot and I was almost horrified.

It was nothing remarkable, just ten seconds or so of me walking from one end of a path to another. Shannonlee took a few pictures to test the lighting and then shot the first video. The first outfit I wore for the shoot was to feature a cute pencil skirt. I had never done video before so this would be a new adventure. I drop my hips, I stand tall, and go go go.Īt the last photo shoot I did I was asked to provide a few videos of me walking in the dresses I was reviewing. You’re supporting your entire fabulous body on two tall, tiny stems as you strut your way around the mall or your house. When you move from tennis shoes to stilettos your whole body moves differently. When it comes to walking I suppose I don’t think that much about it. If you ask Hannah if she would like room for cream in her coffee she’d reply “oh yes please, thank you!”. If my wife asks her husband if he wants pizza for dinner he’d respond with “yeah, that sounds good”. I suppose I speak a little lighter and I choose my words differently depending on what gender I am presenting.

SOMETHING IN THE WAY SHE MOVES HOW TO

From time to time I get questions about how to talk and walk en femme.

Something in the way she moves